I was little Alice
and you were the maze.
I tried to break in
– wanted to get lost,
never to be found.
There was no key
the maze was sound-proof
double-glazed.
There was a bowl of icecream
for a ravenous child
– a scrumptious sight for sore eyes.
You were the silver spoon
the table so tall
– I was too small.
I could just break down and cry
out of anger and exhaustion.
You were a blue cool lake
so far away.
I tried to reach out to you
– the harder I tried, the further you moved away.
Besides, I couldn’t swim, nor dive.
You spoke a language
I could not understand.
You were telling me stories
and you wouldn’t translate.
I was bored and fed up
– needed to be entertained.
I cried out of sheer loneliness.
You just faded away.
You were the White Rabbit
I met you in the dark
I tried to catch up with you
You were running so fast
Always looking at your funny turnip pocket watch
– never looking at me.
I tried to call you
but I had no voice
– there and then you were gone.
You were the Mad Hatter
giving a tea party.
I was so thirsty
but you said it didn’t matter.
You said you were no judge
but there you were assessing me
dismissing me
shrugging me off
– I was no good.
I would have cared for a cupcake.
You told me, child don’t bother
love is not easy game to play
not even in Wonderland
and lies are no currency
not even in Wonderland.
I cried out of guilt
loneliness and abandonment
– more invisible than a pale ghost.
You were the Cheshire cat
whimsical look
quixotic smile
– eyes wider and wilder than life.
I felt kinda obnoxious
but all the same besotted.
I read you a poem
you said, little girl, you’re just a child
you’ll never know better
and love is not easy game
not even in Wonderland.
I tore my notebook in pieces
and cried my eyes out.
You were the Queen of Hearts
– frozen pale eyes, algid grin.
I bowed and sang you a song
trying so hard to please
you said, little girl, don’t bother
love is not easy game to play
not even in Wonderland
leave my kingdom of broken hearts
or else I’ll smash yours.
My feet were sore
My mind was numb
Nowhere to go.
I cried out of randomness,
a ragged bum.
We were sitting in the grass
and there was chilled wine.
My favorite word was “complicated”
yours were “never mind”.
You said, don’t drink little girl
– it will not help you grow up
nor older nor wiser.
I am sorry I have judged you
– that’s just how it goes.
You were snotty and curious
you wanted to be beguiled.
Well that’s Wonderland for you
– you were not invited
and love is not easy game
not even in Wonderland.
Take a sip and forget
– take it from me, you’ll never come back.
I cried out of sheer rejection
– was that my reflection
in your iridescent eyes?
I am such a mess.
I was little Alice
and you were the maze.
The locket was empty
the moon was pale white
the pages were torn
the glass was half drunk
– I was just so tired.
I wanted to get lost
– so I sat there and waited and waited and waited
to find a way
to get into you.
Love is not easy game to play
not even in Wonderland
and moonlights
are heartaches in disguise.

3 thoughts on “Alice and the maze (playing with words)”
Audrey
l'ultima foto è emblematica. perchè a volte è tutto così complicato??
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Ophelinha
..forse perchè siamo noi in primis ad esserlo..
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C. Pepe
Quanto ti do ragione Ophelinha 🙂 C, xoxo.
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